i am a 29 year old male from canada,,i have been married for 7 months and my wife treats me like trash,,my wife is 23 years old,,,we have no children,,my wife told me that if i wouldnt marry her,,then she was going to leave me,,so i asked her to because at the time i did love her,,i have never cheated on my wife,,i am not allowed to have girls as friends,,she burnt all my high school photos i saved all my life from my female firends,,im not allowed to get my picture taken with any of my female friends,,she also tells me she hates me alot,,we have been married for 7 months and have had sex 2 times,,she wont kiss me,,,she has made me go upto 16 months without touching me,,she never hugs me,,cuddles me,,and when i try to with her,,she wont let me,,she will not make any sacrafices for any of my wishes,,she spends days on the internet while i go to bed alone,,she has told me that no other woman would ever want me,,somedays she tells me that she loves me,,,then the next day she hates me,,she has good points that i like,,she dosent lie,,and shes not a cheater or a bar girl...i dont want to be with her because i want to be treated better,,,but i also dont want to make a mistake and throw ay my marrage..i have treyed to talk to her and she blames everything on me,,but as time goes on,,,i push her away,,,she is a very ugly person who never really has anything nice to say about anyone,,shes very controling,,,I AM NOT PERFECT,,,thats why im so confused,,,,before i got married i had feelings for another woman,,,this other woman treats me like gold,,shes alot older,,30,,and is everything i ever wanted..she wants to be with me,,she crys in my arms and tells me she loves me,,and to leave my abuseive wife..sometimes my wife will rip and swear like a pirate,,i dont like this,,she also is dead against house work,,and home repair,,,my wife hasent payed a bill in this house in 2 years,,i pay everything,,,IM TORN,,,i love this other girl,,,and this other girl will not wait any longer for me,,she dosent want to get caught with me,,,i dont want to get caught,,im 28 and have only known 1 way of living,,,i dont want to be single,,i want to be a father,,but i allready know i will not bring a child into this world with my wife because she wouldnt treat it good,,,,my mom says i need to grow a back bone,,,,im afraid of what other people are going to say about me,,,im afraid to be a failure,,,i dont want to lose this other girl,,will someone please help me with some really nice advice,,,because this is driving me tee totally crazy,,,i want this all to stop so i can be normal again,,,i just wanna go to the gym and be told that im loved,,,i feel guilty for seeing another woman behind my wifes back,,,this other women tells me she loves me,,,,but i wont let my self believe it and i dont know why,,she has done nothing but shown honust love to me for 6 months...i have put up with alot for 7 years,,,because i dont want to hurt peoples feelings,,,,i dont know why i dont care about my own feelings,,noone can fix this but me,,,marrage was very important to me,,,,but i stood infront of the preacher KNOWING i didnt want to get married,,please help me someone

confused boy from canada