That's nice of you for having said that Splash! For having sent the email too! Yeah Tania needs much of our support... Heaven believe a bit more in yourself! You're here for something, and something surely brought you to this forum! Don't think you are not important in any way. Trust in you, girl!!

Thank you a lot to all the persons who are my real friends on here and who give me good support. Reading some replies really make me feel good. Sorry i couldn't come back as promised because i had to hide in a bush in the yard. My grandparents were looking for me everywhere to beat me, i'm sure about that. They always want to harm me, but sam is here to protect me. he always warns me when there is a problem to come. He never lets me down when i have a problem. He told me that he would never leave me, he promised this to me and i trust him for that. 2330, your grandparents are not my grandparents. Yes you are right stacey i went through bad times with them, it is a great torture to live with them, i feel like i should kill them sometimes and that is what sam wants me to do, but i never had the courage to do it, i don't know why. I tried to kill myself a lot of times though. I was a very nice feeling to know that i was dying. Death, death, death, oh sometimes i just want to slit my wrist so that they stop destroying my life once for all. Thank you bergisten, you are very nice, well i hope you are sincere, because i once thought my grandparents were sincere, but it wasn't trrue. It's ok heaven, i understood now that you were just depressed last time. Sam says that i must knock my head against the wall very hard one time and then it will be ok. Try to do it too!!! It works sometimes, trust me!!!

In fact, my grandparents keep me as an hostage in their house, they want to hurt me. I don't know why exactly they want to do this. I don't undeerstand what is happening at all. Please people help me to find a solution, i must get rid of them as soon as possible.

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My dear Tania! Suicide is not a solution. I know, you heard those words perhaps lots of times, perhaps you feel like what I just said is pure rubbish. By knocking your head against the wall, you might be forgetting the internal pain you have on the spot, but then, what d'you have? a head ache PLUS your internal pain getting back. Doing this will never remove your pain... Believe me. Actually, I know what I'm talking about, I was very depressive some years back...I had suicidal thoughts and behaviour too, but I managed to realise it was useless. You forget your probs for now, but then they come back, in double, WITH the physical pain you've incurred to yourself.
You are right not to do so. Killing is a horrible act, my friend. Doing that could bring you to behave as horribly as your grand parents did. You are strong, 'cause you are still here. You are strong, 'cause you are here asking us for help. And WE too are here to help you find a solution, my friend.

Thank you for your response stacey. If suicide is not the solution ,what is the solution? No, you are the first person to tell me that suicide is not a solution. Sam always say that i should die, he doesn't understand why i am still alive. How do you want me to trust you when sam has always been there for me? I don't have suicidal thoughts, i have tried to kill myself lots of times. My problem is my grandparents, they are dangerous and i'm afraid of them sometimes, i don't want my grandpa to touch me again, i must hide from him. Either i kill myself or kill them. Sam and i found only these two solutions.

You are here to help me to find a solution and you tell me that knocking my head against the wall is a bad thing? You may need to see a doctor

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Hi Tania.

..Anyone here would tell you that you could make matters worse by doing it.. I don't need to see a doctor my friend.

I understand that very well. I can imagine how much you are suffering. My point is why making you suffer more by hurting yourself physically?
Don't you agree with me that in spite of all those times you tried to kill yourself and hurt yourself, your pain is still present? Would you also agree with me if I say you are a strong girl? I think you are someone really strong, for still holding on right now.

Stacey, do you think that if everyone tells me something, it should automatically be something good? Who told you that i suffer when i knock my head against the wall? No i don't agree with you that my hurt is still present. people around me are the ones creating new fears inside of me all the time. What's the point of finding if i'm a strong girl or not? We're talking about death here, nothing else. I don't care whether i'm strong or not, i just want to know how to die or kill my grandparents. You are trying to convince me by all kind of means that i'm wrong. Do you think i am insane? You are really increasing my level of anger believe me. I'm really angry now

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Originally Posted by Tania Stacey, do you think that if everyone tells me something, it should automatically be something good?

You are right, you are the only one who knows what is good for you

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Originally Posted by Tania You are trying to convince me by all kind of means that i'm wrong. Do you think i am insane? You are really increasing my level of anger believe me. I'm really angry now

She may be pressing you, but you don't have to be angry, she's not in front of you.

Why are you so sad?

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By no means I think you're insane, Tania. You have got totally normal feelings and reactions! ...I might be more insane than you, or anyone here.. But anyway.
Please don't be angry, I sincerely did not mean to put you in such a state. Please forgive me if you feel I said something hurting to you.

Of course she is. I fully agree. But I hate letting people wanting to try to kill themselves, and just 'look at them' sink deep into such actions without doing anything. I know what it feels like to lose someone like that.

I'm far from being against you, Tania... Please believe me!

You scare me so much stacey ... I had a very bad time recently, please help me people. I need your help. I don't know what to do, i don't know where to go, please help me

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